Let’s hope next year is better

Cycle # 9, Cycle Day #5
Who knew that I would complete 2001 without even the prospect of having a baby yet? That makes me horribly sad. I never in my wildest imagination believed getting pregnant would take so long. People have asked me what my New Year’s resolution is going to be and I can’t come up with one. I am already doing all I can to have a baby. Every year for a long time it has been to lose weight, but I can’t do that while TTC. The best that I can come up with is to try to save half of every paycheck of mine, so when I go on maternity leave we won’t be too affected financially.
Having AF visit during Christmas vacation was really hard for me to bear. Especially since my temps were staying relatively high. Every cycle gets harder and harder to deal with. But I didn’t cry this time. I was beyond crying. I just spent 3 or 4 days feeling like my heart was shot clean out of my chest. I even left calling the doctor for a new Clomid rx until today— it’s day five again. The nurse told me that my progesterone levels had come back at a good level, so I am on Clomid 100mg again. She didn’t even ask when I ovulated. But according to that ultrasound report, they think I Oed before the 15th anyway, not on the 19th. I guess the 19th is as good of a day as any.
AF is being kind this round. I think she’ll be just spotting tomorrow. I’ll be glad to be rid of her. Now if I can just get rid of this nasty cough and chest gunk….